CACTI

I rather be the one hurting than be the one hurting. How did you interpret that? I despise the feeling of guilt to my core. Remembering vividly the countless times and instant breakdowns I had. Especially only having the purest intentions just to receive the most unexpected reactions. They say 'Mistakes are meant to be made', so lessons were learnt. But how does one know of the consequences when there was no Rule Book in the first place. Being the one getting hurt meant you had an excuse and a reason to blame that is not yourself. Being the one getting hurt meant you have the choice to forgive and forget. But in the end, you, are the one getting hurt.  Yet being on the other end means you'll live a lifetime feeling indebted over a past action. Over something you can't seem to understand it yourself. Getting called labels for a memory you wish you can alter. I can't lie that some actions that I made were genuinely stupid and karma does exist at some extent. However ...