Lightnings in the rain

STAGE 1: You only wake up and get control in your life when you've reach a certain point in life where you've been through enough. It could be many little things pilling up but it also can be one big rock in your life. Our bunny brain put trust and love in others without knowing what they could do. The moment people leave, the moment they betray your trust, thats when you only see the negative in everything. You regret the actions you've made, you feel as if you're not enough for others, you've given up in yourself. The darkness covered your eyes not allowing you to see what you already have by you. You find bad in things, you change yourself for others, good or bad. Your love for others and yourself is now missing and stolen by the past. You find the things that use make you the happiest seems to makes you feel the worst instead. It may be your friends, families, hobbies, but it just doesn't make you smile like you use to. Everything you do feels forced. Each movement requires energy that can leave you lying on the bed for days. You do things for others but never for yourself. Nothing is walking the path you imagined it to walk. All you're left is emptiness and no will to move.


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