Quicksand

 STAGE 5: As it feels so perfect, you know that feeling wouldn't last. The fear still lingers around and sometimes crack open the scars on your skin. From the lessons you've learn, you know that not everything is perfect. However being in a new environment with a blank new slate is like being a new transfer kid in a unfamiliar school. Thoughts of the trauma brings back unwanted memories that makes you struggle to breathe and move on spot. But I never did let go of the bugs in me, as my indecisive brain decides what to do, I end up being stuck in the middle of the T-junction. Not knowing which path would lead me to the better ending. I either go all in or let go all of it, there is no in between. While I stand in the middle of nowhere, I block people behind me from going to their path. So they push you aside to walk pass you, causing them to leave you from the life you had with them. When I tried to hold onto them, they were just like ghost as my hands went through theirs. I couldn't hold them any longer knowing that i was just an obstacle for them. This toxic relationship of not knowing which is the better choice or it would just start a storm at their side of the story without you even realising.

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