Red

 STAGE 4: The world outside is brighter than ever. Suddenly everything just feels so perfect, in fact it feels fake. Each step i took just goes so smooth. The flaws i thought i saw disappear like ash and now i realise how much good there is in everything. The trauma I once had is now just an experience i went through. Instead of meeting the flaws as i usually would, I met the good in everything. I became more empathetic towards everything and am more grateful which each moment I spend in life. I found back the spark that was missing, the ones that were there from the beginning; I threw away the eye mask that covered my eyes from seeing the things I don't need in life, the ones that caused this storm to happen. It feels like I have gained a metal armor that would protect me and heal the scars I've gained through the process and I'm now shining brighter than ever. Breathing never felt so easy as i learnt to start laughing genuinely again.

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